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Sunday, December 13, 2015

Considering God's Existence and Revelation in Strange Places When we are Angry.

Many people in grief and loss question the existence of God.  If God exists, how could and why did the loved one die or the bad thing happen?  How can God allow bad things to happen to me?

This seems to be likely especially in the stage of anger. The person with grief can look at the world through the dark glasses of anger.  Anger does not let people enjoy times and things, but for some strange reason many of us hang on to it.

Anger as an emotion affects a person physically.  There can be muscle tension, headaches and nausea.  Anger can be monopolizing and affect the way things taste and sound.  It has a way of compounding from the mildest irritation and annoyance up to rage when more thought or time is invested in it. 

With all this anger comes negative emotional thinking.  It is all about the feeling and not the logic.  It can be a self-righteous anger where the sense of victim-hood brings a sense of entitlement. It takes away our desire to look at things logically or factually, and everything is negative.

The Challenge of the God Component in Christmas

This brings us to Christmas.  It is a holiday that commemorates emotion in some form or another.   It is supposed to be a “Merry Christmas.”  We are supposed to “make merry” or do things that make us feel happy.  It is supposed to be the happiest time of the year.  Yeah right.

In the pluralistic, secular cultures of the western world, there have been a number of alternative traditions that get away from the religious origin of Christmas and the focus has been on Food, Gifts, Santa Claus, and the feeling we are supposed to have.  As I have written in the past in this blog, nostalgia is part of this tradition of trying to get good feelings by selectively remembering or recreating the past. 

When you get down to it, despite all the wrapping, bows, ribbons, and sugar coating, the heart of Christmas is God’s revelation of Himself to humanity.  For the angry person whose longstanding grief has led to atheism, emptiness can get kicked up a few notches or levels.

I have found in my discussion with a number of atheists there is an angry, emotional core for their denial of the existence of God.    The angry person who became an atheist has likely asked: If God exists, why did He allow bad things to happen?   As earlier discussed anger is an emotional way of thinking.  Even with the rational arguments of philosophy and theology, every school of thought starts with an emotional core or epistemology.  No matter how logically a devoutly religious person may try to reason with an atheist, the conversation tends to stop at the atheist’s emotional reaction. Such discussions are going to stop because faith starts when the facts go no further.

In the end, you can neither disprove nor prove the existence of God.  The believer is not going to prove it to the atheist. The atheist is not going to disprove it to the believer.

However, if you happen to be an atheist or agnostic and you are still reading this, I supposed your skepticism has kicked into high gear.   

Many of us put an “if” or a “why” in front of God when our expectations are not met or when we get hurt.    Many of us get angry and frustrated at God in our grief.  Some people decide to deny that God exists because the “if’s” and the “why’s” does not get answered to our satisfaction.  

I will say that the concept of Christmas calls you to consider faith and belief and your “if’s” and “why’s.”  You are either going to have them or you are not.  But there is one question: What would lead you to consider belief again?  If God were to be revealed to you that you believed, how would it happen?

The Bizarre Sub-Plot of Joseph

Today, I am struck by the side story of Joseph—the guy who was Jesus’ earthly father.  Relatively little is actually said about him, but the limited information suggests he was a guy who definitely saw God.  You can read this in the New Testament of the Bible in the book of Matthew, chapters 1-2, (https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+1-+2&version=NIV)

and the book of Luke 2

Joseph saw God in some of the most convoluted ways and he demonstrated his belief by his actions.  First, the girl he was supposed to marry turns up pregnant.  He was a religious and righteous man and he was going to do the right thing in breaking off the engagement quietly.  I think that he was one of those who had the right to ask . . . scream at the top of his lungs: 

“How could this happen to me?” 

He could have made a scene and show all of the self-righteous rage in the world and watched her get stoned in the streets.  But God sends him an angel in a dream, telling him to marry the girl, which he does.

After he gets to the place where they have to go to get counted in some mandatory Roman Empire census, the wife has the kid in a barn in the middle of the night and some strange people come barging in almost immediately with a story that they saw a bunch of angels light up the dark sky announcing the baby’s birth and singing glory to God. (Probably about) two years later some happy, rich strangers come in with some extravagant gifts wanting to worship the child.  When they leave he immediately gets a dream telling him to flee because the local tyrant in power was coming to kill the baby.

No one can get into Joseph’s mind from just reading the story, but part of me just can only wonder about his seeing and meeting God through these weird and dysfunctional-appearing ways at what might have been the most trying times of his life.  God did not appear to him in church or in happy moments when he was ready to meet God. God appeared to him as God appeared to him when God appeared to him.

This is a story where it seems that Joseph goes through an emotional roller coaster.  God met Joseph when he was in pain.  God met him in the middle of dark nights.  God met him through bizarre circumstances.  Christmas reveals a God who does not act as “if” we think God should.

God sometimes gives the “why” but it is not necessarily in words.   It would seem that Joseph had an “a-ha” moment after the shepherds came barging into the stable that indeed God was involved.  He would have confirmation of the "a-ha" several days later in the temple when a strange, old man and a strange, old woman came up and blessed the child and talked about what the child would do (later in the Luke chapter).  

Back to the 21st Century

You and I have a choice whether to buy the story of Christmas.  Faith is a choice that is not a logical matter.  It can be a difficult choice when our brains are full of anger and pain over the loss and grief of something that we had cherished.  For some reason (whether divine or economic exploitation), the story of Christmas persists and it reveals God no matter how Santa, Christmas trees, and gifts try to crowd Him out. 

I hope this meaningfully challenged you and offered you some hope if not something to think about.  Feel free to pass it on by reposting it.  Also free to look at the 90 other posts on this blog for thoughts on other subjects.   


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